Decide or not to decide that is the question

...so i was like ebay shopping, yea! but, geez its so bad! i cannot decide! too many options and unfortunately i cant have it all, and if i could would that b satisfying?! my mum always says in communism in former czechoslovakia was everything better! everyone had a job, health care was free, there was very few crime, but people didnt really have options! things were black and white! u were with the commnists or against! western ideaology was forbidden! now we have it all but we cannot afford it she says! crime, unemployment has grown, people are depressed and unhappy!
u know i never considered myself as one of the group, i hate leaders, i hate someone to tell me what to think, but often its so much easier to be told what to do, decide for me...us, the human race we call for freedom, (which communism wasnt, but people didnt struggle like they do now)but we end up struggling! is it maybe bcos the enemy of that so called freedom is hidden enemy? manipulating us, making us believe the decissions are in our hands, or letting us believe ? questions bring questions with no end.....to b honest, i dont have the answers either, but maybe i just wanted to think about it and maybe itll help u find your own answers! bcos often what it only takes is to think...